I have written about this subject before, so please forgive me if it seems duplicative or redundant.
My husband has friends he is able to call and talk to, go out for a beer with, hang out with, or workout with. I don’t have any friends like that. I will say it plainly, it sucks.
It just feels weird, nay, wrong, to honestly say that I have no friends. It’s lonely. It feels pathetic.
It would be nice to have a mom friend to have play dates with or to be able to say, “hey, my kid just did ____, has your kid ever done that? What do I do?” I would like someone to go out to lunch or coffee with, someone to call after I have had a bad day, or to call if I know that she’s had a bad day. I would like someone to talk to about important things, random things, dumb things.
When you’re a kid it is easy to make friends. There are kids in your neighborhood to play outside or ride bikes with. At school each day you are in classes or riding the bus with the same kids. If you are on a sports team you are always around the same group of kids. When you are an adult it becomes different. How do you make friends after a certain age? Real friends?
Yesterday I picked up Abby from the local aquatic park where she had been swimming with her fellow daycare kids. As I was pulling out from my parking spot I noticed the mom parked next to us. She appeared to be close to my age. She was carrying a young baby boy and leading a toddler girl. Wrapped around her waist was a Star Trek beach towel. I immediately thought, she looks like someone I could be friends with. We seemed to have several things in common. But how weird would it be to stop the car, get out, and start up a conversation with this random stranger in a parking lot, “Hey you don’t know me, but you look cool. Can we be friends?” I would look like a crazy person.
So how is it done? I don’t know. Honestly, it is a question that has always baffled me, but I never had an issue until after high school.
When I first started working at my current place of employment sixteen years ago, I worked with a very sweet lady named Kathy. She mentioned to me several times that she thought I and her daughters would get along very well and she wanted us to be friends. Finally I gave in and accepted her invitation to come to her house and hang out with them. The whole evening was totally awkward. We didn’t have anything in common and struggled to make conversation. It was worse than a blind first date.
I have tried to set up a game night at my house on a weekend and invited people, but it never really works. I tried joining a mom group but there was not much interest and it disbanded.
I don’t know, I guess I am at a loss at what to do.
Have you ever felt this way and overcome It? What did you do?